a past i cant forget

I love reading books...anything that interest me...when i was small i used to go for the magical stuffs complete with pixies, gnomes,dwarfs, witches and magicians. And i sometimes wished i can do magic too. as i grew older, i started shifting towards love stories. i have to admit, i love LOVE. i loved to be swept away from the real world into a world where love really does exist. I love the way everything seems to have a happy ending, the way the author describes the perfect guy, and it made me believe that fate do exist. I love how romantic everything seems to be, i love how the guy would do anything to get the girl.. what can i say....im a sucker for love and i love LOVE, being in LOVE and being LOVED.

Im not really sure what is it that im trying to convey here but all i can say is there is someone that i really miss and no matter how hard i tried to forget that certain someone, i never had the strength to push that person away. i kept the memories at the edge, neither close nor too far away. it's always there pulling me back to the past. I know that i should move on, but i just cant. I used to dream of that certain someone and i dream of us trying to patch things up but only to wake up feeling devastated. The real world is calling me back to reality "diane...come back dear, there's no use dreaming of something so impossible". sometimes i cried in my sleep just thinking about it, regretting things, with all the "what if" running through my head, thinking of what might have happened, where did i go wrong and how it's never gonna be the same again.

Love stories reminds me of my love story. It's nothing like the book, it's full of hurt, and regret but amidst all these are also great memories. I gave my heart a long time ago to someone and since that day, i never really got it back. I tried hard to take it back but the more i tried the more it hurts. I put on a happy face for the world to see so that no one will know, but i have reached a point where there is no use pretending. I miss you. I know it's too late now..but i just want u to know that u were never really out of my mind. Not even for a second. I know you have moved on with your life.. i will to... but i just don't know when.....