nearly forgotten emotion...damm...

okay...so its 4.25 am on a saturday morning...im supposed to finish my study...but then i thought why don't i take a few minutes break and see what's happening in the internet world..lolz...so i ended up FB-ing...then i browse through some pics my friend uploaded....and low and behold i came across pics of people that i have been out of contact with for eons... a rush of memories, emotions good and bad starts flooding back. The memories that i tried tucking in the closet, never to re-open it again, never to even think about it all came like a typhoon...huge waves crashing down on poor little unarmed and unprepared me. :( 

Man, i'm not lying when i say i had palpitations and tachycardia just looking at the names and pics...okay i may sound like im exaggerating but i'm not! why is it hard to forget?? urggh...

humans have methods of coping with memories that is maybe too painful to re-live again or too disastrous...i guess my way of coping with it is to never think about it. if you think about it ur doomed! trust me..i've been there done that.

I still feel hurt, i know that it wont go away.. i know that it will leave a scar, but i can't help wishing things were different back then. regrets, regrets, regrets.... :(

those were the days when I was "young"...LoL it makes me sound old..;p

anyway, i guess my point is that i thought i had done pretty well in blocking away painful memories but i just found out that no matter how hard i try it'll still make a wave in my life. guess im not doing a good job then......:(